Underneath It All

I woke up late because I got no sleep, had to call in at work or attempt to get a day off, and then… nothing. My grandfather is just not doing well. He seems to be doing worse every day. They thought it was oe thing and now they suddenly don’t know. It feels like he’s going a little crazy, and I don’t blame him with all the drugs and things the doctors are putting him through. I’m just worried that he’s not going to make it through… *sighs* It’s just… not good right now.

In other news, I got to play a little Skyrim tonight to take my mind off reality. I cleaned up all my quest lines an got me some new weapons. I’m only on level 28 but I’m kicking butt at least. It was a good distraction.

My book is good as well~ I just finished a few chapters of it. Each chapter is super short so it’s fun to finish a few up before bed. I’ll take it with me tomorrow, though. *nod*

Well, I’m going to bed early because I got NO sleep last night. I’m just… stressed I suppose. Things just keep popping up. Friendships aren’t doing great, etc… It just sucks right now. D:

Nighty.

lee

I made a few new icons~ Go check them out of you’d like. Most are of Hayate from Pretear, the anime. Some have his interest Himeno as well. *grins* I like that silly anime. I hope to make a few more icons as well~ I was doing that mostly last night.

Right now, I put down The Omen Machine after reading a few short chapters. I decided to start reading a little each night before I go to bed. I think it’ll get me back in the swing of reading books. I do adore reading them like crazy but for some reason I can’t get myself to do it during the day. I tired at work today but I was just too busy. *laughs* Plus… RICHARD~ *squeals* I love him so reading Richard isn’t like a chore at all.

Work was pretty nice despite being busy. I mostly drove around, oddly enough. I like driving because it’s a break from the building. *nod*

After work, I came home… and crashed. *shot* I didn’t mean to fall asleep but I did for nearly two hours. Hence why I’m still up. I’ll regret it tomorrow morning but grr…

I played a little Journey on the PS3, then I decided to buy Infamus: Festival of Blood. XDDDD I’m utterly amused by it so woot! After fooling around with that, I played more Skyrim and did some evil stuff. *shot* I know, I’m bad. I got this mace by evil methods but… I love it!

Well, now that I’m done reading, I should hit the sack. I’m still sorta’ tired after all. XD

Late!

lee

Well, I did post a random fanfiction the other day but I’ve not posted an actual post in some time. I know, it’s stupid. I have no reason to be so… flaky on here. I’m not doing much now that I’ve graduated college. I wish I could find a job but that’s still not going great. Well, another job I should say. I still work at UPS and it’s really a good job to have right now. I suppose I just want to use my degree and all. XD

So, as I said, I’m just working some and relaxing the rest of the time. It’s nice, to say the least. For once in my life, I’m not stressed about school… and what am I doing? I’m thinking about going back. I know, I’m just evil to myself. *laughs* Who knows if I will, but I can entertain the idea of getting another BS.

My grandfather has been in the hospital for a little while now. That’s what I’ve mostly been doing the past few days, going to see him. He’s really not doing so well… It worries me but he is doing better as of this morning. I’m hoping he’ll just get out of the hospital and go onto recovery.

What else… Oh! I managed to grab myself a copy of The Omen Machine yesterday at Half Price Books. I’m happy to read more Richard. *giggles* I’m going to read through it and start up my reading once more. I’ve been lazy and haven’t read much. I need too!! I’ve been reading manga. XDD

Well, I’m gonna’ enjoy the rest of my Sunday. Hope to write more tomorrow. ;D

lee

I want another job… the guy that’s supposed to be giving me a job is dragging his heels. I want more money so I can save up for a down payment on a condo. >.> I don’t think that’s too much to ask for! Regardless, the guy keeps saying ‘I got you in mind and once I finish this, blah, blah, blah…’ I’m about sick of it and I should look for another job… the only thing is, this one manages to fit perfectly with UPS. I can work a little from home and keep UPS in case of emergency. *sigh* It makes me sad… I just want to start!

Anyway, besides that, work has been alright. I took two days of vacation just because I felt like it. It’s nice, to be honest. It’s like I’ve had a mini vacation the past few weeks. Oh! I also got my raise, which is super nice. A little over fifty cents. Not too shabby. XDD

I’m hoping to get the rest of my plant deck stuff in the mail soon. I bought some other stuff, which includes a lime green box, a new cover for my computer, it’s keys, and some cheap ink for my printer. A pretty god haul, to say the least.

Well, I should hit the hay soon. I’d rather stay up and play Skyrim more but, yeah, I must sleep…

lee

I haven’t moved the past two days now, ever since I got home on Friday from getting my nails done. I doubt I’ll go anywhere today, either. I should have considering there’s probably no one really out today. It’s the SuperBowl or whatever so I doubt there’s many crowds out in the malls or shops. Still, I figured I should just stay home. Gas is stupidly high so I’m trying to conserve it as much as possible. Annoying, yes, but I only work part time so… Yeah. XD

This past week wasn’t all that bad at work. Sure, it was annoying when we didn’t have help but it seemed like the volume was low or something. A few days we got a pretty easy lull in the beginning of the day. I look for some stuff to change of course, though not too much for myself. It’s annoying, to say the least…

I bought a bunch of cards last night again. *laughs* I made myself a nice plant deck and I’ve now finished it. Everything is in the mail and on it’s way. Woot! I’m happy, to say the least. It’s about time I made my plant deck. I should have everything by this coming up weekend~

Well, nothing else going on in my life. Today I’m just relaxing and probably gonna’ finish it by playing skyrim~

lee

I took some more vacation, oddly enough. They made me mad again at work. XDDD No help does that these days. So I just took off three days. I’ll go back on Monday all rested and ready for work.

Well, what have I done? A lot, oddly enough. I’ve been playing Skyrim in my spare time, though. It’s taken up a lot in my life. *laughs* It’s awesome, though! I love the game. It’s much prettier than Oblivion, though there are things I don’t like as much. The alchemy system is one… All in all, it’s a great game. I’ll play it for many more hours… Mostly because I don’t have anything else to do. Usually, Emily is on and we write and talk but she’s not been on like that in months, to be honest. It’s depressing but it does free me up a lot. I’d rather not have it that way… Heck, I was even thinking about taking a trip in the summer to the beach. How nice would that be?

I went to hang out with my grandmother on Thursday. She wanted to go to Wal-mart so I took her out there. We might be going out more today, again because of all this free time. I suppose it’s good for me, yes. I just got so used to chatting online. I did it for years so all this free time is so strange to me…

Well, it’s time for me to get ready. I’ll try not to neglect this journal anymore. XDD

lee

I don’t know what is up with the weather as of late. One day, it’s freezing and the next we have tornado’s. I’m currently supposed to be in bed but the severe weather is keeping me from sleeping. My parents and I are watching the weather and contemplating sleeping in the basement. Sad, no? Oh well… If not, I’ll sleep UPSTAIRS while they’re safe in their room. I see a problem with this… Maybe I should go sleep in the creepy basement? XD

My weekend went by far too fast… I’ve got to get up to go to work once more. Sad day, sad day… I had a good weekend, though. Friday I started it off with a little shopping and dinner with mom. Saturday, I got my nails done and then went out later to hang out with Jess. We ate, went to Half Price Books, and then went back to her place to play some games. Last night I went to bed early, oddly enough… However, I still slept too much this morning. Or Sunday morning, I should say. I probably won’t get a lot of sleep today… but that’s fine.

I’m supposed to hang out with Amber, a friend from nights at UPS, this Weds. I hope we do~ I miss hanging out with her. XD

I guess I’m gonna’ try to sleep… Hopefully a tree won’t come through the upstairs and kill me. O.o

lee

I really hope this second job works out. In my mind, it’ll help stable me. I’ve been kinda’ upset all evening for various reasons and I think to myself that it’s because I have too much time on my hands. I like it, being out of school, but now I realized how that kept me so grounded. Now, it’s like I have too much time… Aka, I need another job. NOW. Meh.

It seems like I’m fighting now more with Ems than ever… It’s a bummer, because it really does upset me. We’re either good friends still or we’re just growing apart. I’m afraid it’s starting to drift to the latter… Am I lucky to just be her friend? Maybe… or maybe not. I’m just tired to trying to jump threw fire rings but at the same time I don’t want to lose her as a friend. Maybe we’ve out grown one another. I out grew her sister… *shrugs* I don’t know… it just makes me depressed to think about that. We had a ton of fun the past few years but since he summer, it’s been rocky. I don’t know what changed, I really don’t.

Anyway, work is still hard. Again, I hope to get this second job lined up so that I can cut back at UPS. That’ll be a dream… For three hours, it’s not a bad job. For more than four, it seems like hell…

I bought a new game. It’s called Kuon~ It’s apparently a pretty scary game. It’s a game I would play with Ems but who knows if I will. I don’t think she’ll come to Louisville to play a game with me.

Well, I’m going to bed. Being upset and depressed tires me out and I got up early again. Nighty.

lee

My foot is aching like cray… I did something to it and now it’s hurting so bad. *tears* It’s got a knot in the middle of my arch, no less. I have no idea what’s wrong with it. I’ve been wrapping it in a heating pad and hopin git gets better. It hasn’t. ;_;

Anyway, enough complaining about my foot. Work is hard, hoping I’ll get my new job soon so I can cut back on hours at UPS. That’ll be nice, especially this summer when it’s a billion degrees outside. >.>

Ugh… I just can’t think of much to write tonight. I’ve been bad and haven’t been writing. It’s kinda’ sad. My writing partner is kinda’ MIA half the time though, so that’s my writing spirit. *sigh* I guess I could write that book I’ve always wanted to write. Or at least work out the kinks until I get the courage up to actually write period. I don’t know.

Well, I’m gonna’ go soak my foot for a while and then fall asleep… I got up way too early this morning to still be awake.

lee

That and lazy, I must admit… I could have wrote an entry but I just went to bed at the end of the day instead. It was a little busy, at least.

I woke up kinda’ late but I had to get to the Apple Store by 12:30pm. Dad met me up there and we switched out a battery for my older black Macbook. It’s mom’s computer now too so I helped pay for it anyway. She deserves a good battery. XD

After that, dad and I went to eat lunch at a Chinese restaurant. Tis yummy~ He went home after that, actually and I was on my own. I hopped over to Half Price Books and looked around. I ended up picking another Final Fantasy XII guide up. I already have one but it’s missing pages and it’s coming apart. I use it so much that I figured it’ll be worth it to just to replace it. Besides, it was cheap. After the book store I looked around in Game Stop. Didn’t see anything so I went around the corner to Fashion Bug. I bought a couple shirts on clearance before I ended up going home. Jess ended up coming over for a while and we hung out. Twas fun~ Mom played card games with us. XD

After she left, it was really late and I just decided to sleep. *snort*

Today, I’m not doing anything. I’m relaxing and just doing nothing. It feels wonderful~ *off to do more of the nothing~*

lee

I’m of course on it right now. Not only that, I’ve also changed around my office space~ It’s much comfier, I must admit. It took nearly three hours, though. XD I have n life!

Jess is coming over tomorrow evening so I also super cleaned. I know she doesn’t mind it but I like it to be cleaned once a week at least, especially when someone comes over I like to clean the night before~

It’s freezing in Louisville right now… I’m so cold I can hardly type! XD

I think I might go get me a late night snack… Then, I might hot the sheets. I love sitting here and writing and chatting but it’s certainly time for bed. I have company AND an Apple Genius Bar appointment. The battery on my old black Macbook is on the fritz and I want them to take a look at it before I decide to get a new one. The newer ones are like $130. ;___; My dad is coming with me, though! We hardly spend time together so I find it funny when we go do stuff together. *laughs* Don’t as me why. I just find it funny. My dad and I are strange creatures and very much alike in some ways.

But yes, I should get to bed here. I gotta’ get up and make it to the mall by 12:30pm, after all. ;D

lee

Yeah, I did… It wasn’t terrific but it wasn’t bad, either. Still not enough help, however the woman is totally gone that I didn’t like. Oh, for that matter, the idiot I didn’t like is gone too. *mean* But yes, I went back to work and had a good day. My legs are tired and so am I though… I’ll probably end up going to bed soon.

Work was uneventuful, but then I got home and opened some mail~ I got my Snow Leopard upgrade for my mothers computer~ It’s like brand new. I totally adore Snow Leopard. I have it on my computer right now… I refuse to upgrade to Lion until they fix all the nasty bugs. >.>

Now, it took me nearly three hours to figure out my mom’s computer but it’s working, finally. Not only that, but it works totally great. I’m pleased at least. The only thing is… well, I have my computer upstairs that I want to update to snow leopard. It should be able to do such a think but who knows. I’m afraid it’ll freak out and not work.

In other news… there is none. I’m tired. XD

lee

We had to put down our dog… Chewy lived to be a good age of fifteen, believe it or not. It’s a terrible thing, putting down a pet… But she was suffering so it really was for the best. I hated it but we had to. *sighs* I’ll miss that old dog. We didn’t always get along but she was my Christmas present when I was about nine years old. I always wanted a husky after I saw Balto and I got her that year. She was precious…

That’s what I did mostly yesterday evening, tearing up over her. Today wasn’t much better. I stayed home from work again and did some chores around the house. I slept a lot as well… go figure. I didn’t mean to but I just couldn’t get my butt out of bed.

I did laundry, dishes, cooked, etc. Nothing too exciting on my last day off. I’m finally going back Weds. Which, actually, it is Weds. *snort*

Hopefully I’ll get a call from this media place about a part time job. I called them after receiving an email to call, only the guy didn’t pick his phone up. So hopefully, I’ll get a call tomorrow. >.>

Well. I need to get the sheets. I’m tired, despite laying around half the day. Nighty.

lee

I didn’t post a day… CURSES! I hate that I just failed last night. *shot* Oh well…

So, it’s 11:49 as I type and I obviously didn’t go to work today! Yeah… I took another vacation day and I’ll do so tomorrow as well. I’m just not in the mood to work… It’s like a nice vacation. I’ll be off a week so I can’t complain too much.

Mostly I stayed home today because when I got in the shower, I almost collapsed because I was dizzy. I’m not getting enough sleep or something… That or my medicine is just reacting wrong. *dead* I hope not, at least.

Yesterday was uneventful. I’m playing DragonVale a lot~ It’s a cute game that doesn’t cost me anything but a little time. Plus all the dragons are totally adorable and so creative.

I also watched a little more of The Nanny. Mom things it’s funny…

My grandparents came over unexpectedly as well. I was surprised because everyone thinks we live in the country or something. We don’t obviously… Meaning me and my parents of course. I still live with them. XDD

Well, I’ve got to deal with some stuff today… My dog seems not to be doing well. She’s old so it’s understandable. She seems tired a lot and her breathing seems labored. We’re taking her to the vet but I have a feeling she’ll be put down. It’s an awful thing…

I’ll post later on that.

lee

I’m making a short post today, mainly because I’m dead tired and should have been in bed hours ago. XD

Today wasn’t all that exciting. I actually stayed home and did nothing. Fought with a friend early in the morning, stayed up way too late, then decided to sleep in until noon or so. I wish I hadn’t because now I’m up in the middle of the night. Regardless, I got up after so long and decided to finally put the Christmas Tree away. Meh. I love my tree!

After that, I popped in The Nanny and watched a bunch of that while I waited around for someone to come home. My parents decided to go out for no reason… plus, no one got online to talk to me. My life is so boring!

I played a lot of Doodle God. It was hilarious and I beat it just tonight. It was hard, too… I recommend it because it really makes you think~

That’s pretty much it for my day. I have a feeling later today will also be that way… I might play some Skyward Sword thought! :D

Nighty~

lee